It’s Saturday night of Halloween weekend, and what am I doing? Watching a rerun of Hocus Pocus while two sweet girls are upstairs sleeping. I have to say, I don’t hate it. Halloween, in all its candy-consuming, costume-wearing, spooky-scariness, doesn’t do much for me. There’s not a whole lot of excitement surrounding this holiday, so babysitting is an appealing alternative to facing the madness of Halloween on a college campus.
Not to mention, more than anything else right now, I need space. That word has been rolling around on my tongue all day. My friend Sam is the biggest supporter of the word space, and earlier today wrote about taking space to listen.
I wrote last week about taking a break from technology, but I wasn’t intentional with that time. Our Internet began working shortly after I wrote that post, and I got caught up last week in the craziness of school and friendships and phone calls and assignments and then all of a sudden it was Thursday night at 10:00pm and I hadn’t really taken space to figure out what was going on in my heart and in my head. In reality, I’ve been feeling uneasy and discontent and disconnected from people in my life and, at that point in time, couldn’t figure out where it was coming from or what to do with it. The only things I knew on Thursday night were that I needed space and I needed to surrender. Dependence.
Since Thursday, I’ve tried to be intentional and conscious of my need for space. Last night, I turned off my phone and had honest conversations with my roommates. This morning, I kept my phone off and spent a few hours in bed with my journal and bible. This afternoon, I got together with friends who I haven’t been with since Rome; friends who share in my passions for food, exploration, and conversations full of laughter. I went for a long run past my favorite spot on the lake. And now here I am, on a couch in a quiet and unfamiliar house with Hocus Pocus humming in the background.
Space. I am pleased to write that taking just a small amount of space has been beneficial. In the past twenty-four hours, I feel that I’ve gained ample perspective. There are definitely more specific blog-posts coming in regards to what’s been on my heart this week, but for now, I’m heading back to the quiet of an unfamiliar house, enjoying the space.
What are you doing to create space in your life right now? Is there anything you need to step away from to gain perspective?
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