break.

Bethesda has been without internet for a few days now. Although it is a huge annoyance that when I need to check my email it requires a trek to campus or Starbucks, I'm oddly thankful for the break. Being without internet at our apartment has not only reminded me how technology-dependent we all are, but also challenged me to be present with my roommates and spend my time more productively than surfing the web.

I'm also finding that for the past few days, my heart and my head have been heavy and filled with a mess of thoughts about self-doubt and insecurity and why everyone struggles with it and no one talks about it. And I'm completely incapable of making any sense of my thoughts. Let's be honest, though, that's nothing out of the ordinary. With the break in internet at our apartment, I'm going to take the next few days to process outside of the blogosphere.

Currently it's raining, it's late, and it seems like the perfect time to crawl into bed with my journal and my bible for some quiet time. No music. No phone. No computer. No technology.

A much needed break.